Thinking about this day makes me all emotional, I need to express my feels.
This day pretty much changed my life. If I hadn’t gone to that show, my life would be completely different. I met a couple of good friends that night, and it’s the day Becca and I became best friends. It was Becca’s first show, and one of the most fun I’ve ever been to. To be honest, I was expecting them to suck, but they were AMAZING.
The shenanigans afterward were crazy, and hilarious. And thus, this .gif was born:
(I see it on Tumblr all the time, and it makes me so happy. But it was so much more awkward looking in person.) By the end, most everyone involved was covered in shaving cream and various food/drink items. Axe was also involved, and at some point, it ended up in my eyes.
Earlier that year, I had been dealing with a lot of self-esteem issues. I thought that I was absolutely hideous. That night, I saw the most beautiful boy i had ever seen in my life (Seriously though, the first time I saw him I was stunned at how gorgeous he was, and I could not believe that it was even possible to be that ridiculously good looking. I’m pretty sure my jaw dropped), and he asked if we had met before. I told him no, and he told me that he must have met me in his dreams. Then super awkward flirting commenced, and people were like “OOOOOOOOHH!!!!”. Then later we were taking a picture, and he held me weirdly close. At the time it was weird, but now I miss it. Anyway, the point is that since this little incident, I have been so much more confident and haven’t felt at all ugly (except for when I had that rash on my face. That was disgusting, and painful, and I cried). I owe this boy a lot.
After Becca and I attended that show, it was the beginning of a ton of adventures I’ve had, and crazy amazing life-changing events. If I hadn’t gone to that show, I would never have gone to LA for another show of theirs. That entire day was INSANE, and I wouldn’t re-live it for a million dollars, (This happened and we got lost and our tire rolled down the street and I thought we were gonna die:)
but I also wouldn’t give it up either. I have met so many amazing people, and have so many amazing experiences, and it would take forever to explain everything, but in the long run, if I had never gone to that show, I most likely would never have made the decision to move to Texas.
Despite how much I hate living in Texas, so many incredible things have happened to me since I’ve been here. I would never have talked to Jon/Eric, I would never have talked to Molly at South By, I would have never seen Blink-182 (I cried during Always. No shame), I would never have done that stupid thing I did in San Antonio, I would never have hung out side stage at show laughing and joking with my hero, which sounds stupid but it was one of the most amazing moments of my entire nineteen years of living. I still don’t even feel like it actually happened. All these among other things that have gotten me closer to achieving my dreams.
A huge thing is that If I had never been a fan of this band, I would have never become friends with Ally. If it wasn’t for Ally, I would not known about the awesome audio program at the Art Institute of San Diego, and would probably be going somewhere in Austin instead. Becca and I have had this dream of living in San Diego for a couple years now. I still have to get more credits at Weatherford before I can transfer, but it’s still happening at some point, and I’m super stoked about it.
I would have never met a lot of people who have inspired me to keep working hard for my dreams, even when so many people tell me I’ll never make it. Sometimes I just want to give up, but these people, my biggest inspirations, that I look up to so much believe in me, and keep me thinking positive.
I don’t listen to that band so much anymore, or even really pay attention to what they’re up to, but I owe them so much. They are amazing, and inspiring, and they have worked so hard to get where they’re at. This whole post probably sounds stupid, but I really have no idea where I would be without them. Judge me all you want. I wish them the best, and hope to see them on the road sometime in the future.
Stay sassy ;)